Ecclesiastes 3:1-15, A Time for Everything

There is an appointed time for everything......
A time to give birth, a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to uproot what is planted.
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to tear down, and a time to build up.
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance.
A time to throw stones, and a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace, and a time to shun embracing.
A time to search, and a time to give up lost;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away.
A time to love, and a time to hate;
A time for war, and a time for peace.

不想长大！

小时候，很希望自己能快高长大。
长大了，却希望自己永远是小孩。
这就是“人”！
还记得，我小时候，看到大人驾车时，我是多么的希望我也能像他们一样。
现在，长大了，学会驾车了，却很怀念小时候被“载”的感觉！
算是一生中最幸福的事吧？
现在，必须被当成是“司机”看待！
乘客说要去“那里”就必须开车把他们送到“那里”去。
小时候，去哪里都不用自己亲自整理行李，机票也不必操心。
长大了，要出门都觉得懒惰！
因为要收拾行李，要想该带什么，自己顶机票，等等。。。
小时候，张大嘴巴就有的吃！
长大了，要吃东西都须经过三思。
因为是自己想吃，所以就必须自己煮。
真的很不想长大！
长大后，有很多东西须自己去思考！
很多东西须自己去动手。

Not a day for me!

How should I express out for today?
I want shout!
I want scream!
I need release all out!
今天如果小姑不告诉我这一切，我永远都被蒙在鼓里。
知道整件事情过后，我对我自己说，我永远都不会跟你相认！
很伤心！
很难过！
Just now, after you guys tell me about it.
I really don't know what should I say anymore.
Cause I'm the one who is not updated right now.
I really feel sad right now.
How I wish that I can stop the time and you guys will not let me know anything.
But I can't!
I hate myself!
Haix!
Can't control my heartbeat for tonight!
What's the matter going on?
Hate hate hate!!!

为什么？

为什么？
这到底是为什么？
已经没有去了。
就不应该再为这件事情感到伤心才对！
可是为什么一旦Ms Connie发简讯给我时，我还是很伤心、很难过呢？
这次我真的是越陷越深了！
怎么办啊！！！
选择不去的人是我！
选择在家里伤心的人也是我！
不要再想了！

Welcome back!!! ^_^

Back to my blog!
It's been quite a long time I didn't write anything in here.
Well, for these 3 weeks holidays, I think it is time for me to do my countdown.
Next month I will be going to Penang for my Diploma studies already!
Now my feeling is like, sad and moody.
But this is a kind of road which everyone needs to go through.
Although sad and moody but I can't express it out and let all the people around me to worry about me.
Friends are all leaving 1 by 1.
Same goes to me!
Need do packing and many more.
Wednesday night, I had my Farewell Dinner with my relatives.
I had so much fun with them.
Well, I don't know how to continue on.
Just stop right here and continue tomorrow.
Bye ~ ~ ~

女生正确生活方式

~~女生应知道的正确生活方式~~
1.在乾淨的床上裸睡。
2. 生理期不吃巧克力，因為會加重痛經。
3. 養成記錄生理週期的習慣。
4. 透過運動而非調整型內衣來塑造曲線。
5. 不翹二郎腿，以免壓迫神經。
6. 貼身衣物不干洗。
7. 拉風的丁字褲不適宜日常穿著。
8. 去年的衣服要進行曝曬後才可以穿。
9. 如非必要，不使用衛生護墊。
10. 定期檢查化妝品的保質期。
11. 洗浴後一小時再化妝。
12. 即使愛美，也不要在耳朵上部的外緣軟骨部位穿耳洞。
13. 了解自己的家庭病史，特別是母親和外婆的病史。

~~關於飲食~~
1. 在牛奶和豆漿之間，選擇後者。
2. 覺得還可以再吃半碗飯時，離開餐桌。
3. 如果身體不感到飢渴，每天只需飲用4杯水。
4. 多喝酸奶。
5. 無論什麼原因，都別抽煙。
6. 在食譜裡添加雜糧和菜蔬。
7. 飲綠茶勝過紅茶。
8. 重視早餐多過晚餐。
9. 控制鹽的用量。
10. 起床後先刷牙，再喝水。
11. 經常嚼口香糖。
12. 一早一晚，兩個蘋果可以有效改善便秘。
13. 純素食可能導致荷爾蒙分泌異常，造成不孕。
14. 每周至少吃一次魚。
15.遠離可樂等碳酸飲料。
16. 不喝久煮的火鍋湯。
17. 沒有果汁牛奶這回事，它們是天生的冤家。
18. 飯前吃水果勝過飯後。
19. 睡前可以來一杯紅葡萄酒。
20. 喝咖啡可能引起女性骨質疏松。

~~關於運動~~
1. 多享受早晨8－9點的陽光。
2. 跑步、騎腳踏車等運動可以保持優美的腿部線條。
3. 熱水泡腳可有效預防靜脈曲張。
4. 精神極度疲倦時並不適宜以運動減壓，休息更重要。
5. 冬季少做戶外運動。
6. 10層以下，不乘坐電梯。
7. 每三個月改變一次你的健身選單。
8. 每天運動半小時，而非週末運動3小時。
9. 邊看電視邊做柔軟體操。
10. 經常散步。
11. 午休也是健身的好時間，不一定非等到晚上。
12. 光腳穿運動鞋固然舒服，卻對健康不利。
13. 睡半硬的床鋪更有利於頸椎健康。
14. 去正規的醫院而非美容院接受按摩。
15. 非運動狀態下不喝功能性飲料。
16. 運動後休息半小時再入浴。
17. 不在過吵的健身房中鍛鍊。
18. 正確的姿勢比專程去健身更有效。

Smile =)

Today because of the long beans, it makes me smile whole day.
I cook for lunch this afternoon.
Long beans and vegetables with oyster sauce.
At first cook long beans.
While I was cooking, one of the long bean jump out.
And I was laughing all the way when I was cooking.
Grandma says : "Girl, are you crazy? Long bean jump out only. Do you need to laugh all the way you cook?"
But I really can't control myself.
I was laughing and laughing.
Oh my goodness.
Now I just know that I didn't laugh till so happy since the time mummy passed away till now.
These few nights having not enough sleep.
My eyes now is so painful.
Close my eyes pain.
Open my eyes also pain.
=.=
Help me!!!

Damn It!!!

Who do you think you are?
What do you think I am?
What the hell that you guys treat me like that?
I'm not your slave OK?
Damn you!!!
I'm not the person for you to order anything and I go buy.
You want to eat then please go buy for yourselves!
Know that I don't like to go out.
But still insists want me to buy all the food for your dinner?
Excuse me, I'm really not your slave.
Bare it in your mind!
Shit you!

Accept the fact!

Well, title for my blogging today!
I hate it.
But what can I do for the most?
I can only be silence and stay in my room.
Nothing much more I want to say about it.
Even now my personal data.
I hate to fill in all my details.
How I wish that I'm not born.
But can I make any changes?
HaizZz
If it is a YES, then I will not be blogging at here right now.
Sad me.
I hate myself much much.

Can't drink cold water anymore!!!

Damn it.
What's wrong with me?
Can't drink cold water anymore!
Shit!
I want cold water.
Due to after drinking will cough non-stop everytime, I can't drink cold water anymore.
HaizZz...
Why treating me like this?
Weather now is hot also.
And no more something to cool me down except air conditioner.

Phone need to be check every night???

What's the matter right now?
Phone need to be spot-check too?
Damn it!
Just because incident happened from Aunty Jessie's son.
Story starts like that......
Aunty Jessie always complaint to daddy that his son always sms.
One day, she talk to her son.
She just found out that her son pakto.
What the ~ ~ ~
Quarrel somemore.
The weird thing is......
Why the girl's mother is so open-minded?
Every sunday fetch her daughter's boyfriend then go out together.
Cool ~ ~ ~
But daddy, it doesn't mean that it will be same to all the teenager OK?
Her son pakto why you also think that we everyday sms also pakto wor?
Does this means that no more privacy for me?
虽然说我没有做什么亏心事。。。
但是，我也需要有自己的空间了。。。
But I think what I'm saying right now is useless.
Cause this kind of spot-check is going on anyway.
HaizZz
I hate this.

算了。。。算了。。。无言。。。

Daddy brought himself a new phone =(
I want a new phone too!
Seriously!
But decided not to change cause of someone.
Damn it!!!
LAPTOP NO!
New HANDPHONE NO TOO!
Asking myself to cool down.
I'm sure I can cool down!
Definitely I can cool down!
Telling myself that new HANDPHONE is nothing too.
Just make myself to have a phone that can let me messaging and calling is enough already.
I can get a new LAPTOP & HANDPHONE for myself 1 day.
I'm very sure that I can do it.
Just wait and see.
In someday, you will see that I've my own LAPTOP & HANDPHONE!
Buy it by myself and not using daddy's money.
That time don't you dare to say that daddy is 偏心!!!
Didn't change anything is just because of you!!!
Damn it!!!

01 June will be going to Penang and have a look in my new school.
Should I be happy about it?
I'm not sure.
The only things that I'm sure is that I'm sad cause for the few more more weeks I'm leaving.
And I'm sure is going to have homesick.
The air ticket for this time is not worth at all.
But what to do?
The time after they inform me the air ticket is already RM400++.
Thought that it will be much cheaper in someday so didn't bought it in earlier.
Now my air ticket is RM500++.
What the f***!!!
Damn expensive!!!
Can I don't go and have a look of my new school???
I think the answer is very clear that it is a NO from daddy.
Cause he say by the time I really go for study he will not be able to go with me anymore.
It schooling day after all.
Urrgh......
Promise myself again!
I'M NOT GOING TO BUY AN AIR TICKET IN SUCH AN EXPENSIVE PRICE ANYMORE!!!
NOT WORTH AT ALL!!!

I think so ~ ~ ~

I'm asking myself: "Have I did a right decision?"
Actually it is definitely a YES, but when you telling me about getting my hair go colour.
I think again: "Have I make a right decision?"
This time I was saying: "I think so to myself."
Oh my godness!!!
Don't tell me anymore things which is on fashion!!!
Seriously!!!
I've chosen my route to continue.
I want to become a NURSE!
A successful NURSE which can help those sick and suffering patient.
Ask again: "Why you choose to be nurse as your profession?"
Actually what I can say was I've made this decision since I was in Form 4.
It doesn't change until now.
And I can say that this decision mostly also being affected by Mummy actually.
Mummy was the one who make me realize that in this world there are thousands and millions of people who are suffering from many kind of sickness.
For more, nurse nowadays getting less and less.
No one willing to go for this job just because need to take care patient or other reason???
Still remember that when I was accompany Mummy go General Hospital, the service is running in a slow motion way.
Duhh, due to not enough nurses, can say that a nurse need to handle at least more than 5 patients???
Other reason for me to going for this path also being affected by RC!!!
Joining RC for more than 7 years since Primary till Secondary.
Woots ~ ~ ~
Don't know why I can stay so long time in it.
Really need to salute to myself!!! (ehek...jkjk...)
From what I'm learning in RC usually I did apply it into my daily life.
But what I knew that is in my future, the casualty that I'm going to see will not have just a small minor injury.
Maybe will have whole body covering with blood or the casualty will have broken arms and legs???
Well, I'm ready for all this challenges.

By the way, daddy is telling me that I'm going to take their scholarship.

Good thing for me???

Hope so!!!

Cause I still need bonding with them for 5 more years.

After that, I want to upgrade myself again.

I want to go further and further.

♥ Happy Teacher's Day! 教师节快乐！♥

Happy Teacher's Day!!!

Hahaha!!!

Time pass so fast...

This year Teacher's Day, and also it was first time bought something really special for Ms Connie...

But this gift was given to her very early...

It's during Fun Day Camp...

For the some sort of things that make me feel so shy >.<

Just wanted to say Ms Connie, thank you for everything...

Thanks for bringing me home when I have no transport...

Thanks for teaching me many things...

Thanks for the Secret Recipe cake... [if you still remember it...XD]

Thanks for willing to be my listener...

Thanks for every every everything...

Most important thanks for your caring and being with me in the time I needed most...

Thank you very much...

To all teachers, make yourselves have a nice weekend in celebrating Teacher's Day...

Once again, Happy Teacher's Day!!! ♥♥♥

HaizZz...

不知什么时候开始。。。
自己进 Advisor Team 里。。。
告诉爸爸时，他似乎有点不开心。。。
可是却没有一起好好坐下来谈过。。。
有时，他很赞成我去每一个 activity。。。
不会反对些什么。。。
有时，他却说我常去 RC 多过待在家里了。。。
真的很不懂他在想什么了。。。
刚才，春梅问我要不要去 Sarikei VRN。。。
知道爸爸一定会不高兴所以就跟她说我的原因。。。
就连我的 Award 也不要 apply 了。。。
放弃这一切或许家里就不会有那么多问题了。。。
虽然，没有人想说，但我都知道的。。。
在家里，根本没有人会赞成中学毕业后再回去帮这么多的。。。
给那些不懂一切的人，他们肯定觉得说这叫多管闲事。。。
为了不让他们对爸爸这样说，我只好去少一点了。。。

~ 真心话 ~
其实，我很想去 Sarikei VRN 了。。。
其实，我很想要 apply award 了。。。
不过，做人有时要看情况而走的。。。
要学会知足。。。
我必须明白这一切的一切。。。

有时，我怀疑为什么我自己从来不会对家里人发大脾气。。。
只懂得把所有的一切都写进部落格里。。。
要不就向朋友埋怨这一切。。。
我到底会摆一个臭脸色给家里人的吗?

难乎？易乎？ 不难，也不易！[转载]

（ 一 ）

    难！真的难！
    做人难，难做人！人生在世，难字当头！谁说做人不难？
    做男人难，男人要刚强，男人要有事业，男人要有一个坚强的臂膀提供一个舒适温暖的港湾，好男儿要志在四方，男人，还要有泪不轻弹……
    做女人难，做一个好女人难，做一个优秀的好女人更难！女人要温柔，女人要美丽，女人也缺少不了智慧，女人要奉献，女人还要不能迷失自己……

    创业难，创业岂是儿戏！你要办企业，你要丢掉你舒适的工作环境和旱劳保收，你要冒多大的风险？资金，生产，技术，销售，人员，管理……一分钱压到英雄汉， 资金周转不过来怎么办？技术不过关，技术人员留不住怎么办？销售打不开局面怎么办？销售人员跳槽带走客户怎么办？市场瞬息万变，天有不测风云，破产怎么 办？怎是一个难字了得！
    ……

（ 二 ）

    谁说都是难？谁说那么难？做人难么？做事难么？创业难么？——事在人为！活人会让尿憋死？
    世上事没有做不到，只有想不到！人定可以胜天！心有多高，世界就有多大。我修身，我齐家，我可平天下！
    不想当将军的士兵不是好士兵，有哪个将军是天生下来就是的？王侯将相，宁有种乎？燕雀安知我鸿浩之志？
    我想行，我就一定能行！有志者，我事必成！给我一个支点，我能把地球支起！是啊，现在不是流行励志么，不是说人人都能成功么？

    人家才大老粗，企业搞得这么大，难道我大学生不如他？我有技术有知识，我不行？我很年轻有志气，我不能？我懂行我善交际，我不能成功？我一定能成功，我肯定能比他们成功，他们肯定不是我的对手，我要成为业内第一，我的企业一定不会浑浑噩噩……创业么，容易！
   ……

（ 三 ）

    那么，真那么难么？——不难，没有想象的那么难；或者，真那么易么？——不易，也没有想象的那么易；所谓的“不难，也不易”。

    对于到处都是一个难字的人来说，对于难字当头的人来说，很多的难，其实，是自己难倒了自己！是畏难情绪，未战之前，自己把自己给打倒了！那么，这世上，岂有不难之事！

    一个未上学之前，就被灌输，就已认为学习是一件很难的事的孩子，他的学习，自然是难的；因为他首先失去了自信，因为他不相信自己，因而他遇到困难时，总是在找借口，而不是找方法，他的学习注定是难的！

    一个想创业的人，如果他创业之前，认为这个世界是黑暗的，看不到光明，那他首先就迈不开这第一步，即使勉强迈了步，遇到困难，肯定想的是退却和逃避，他就 不会有积极的心态，就不能坚持，就不能忍耐，就承受不了挫折，就像是，秀才造反，三年不成！那么他的创业，在开始之先，就注定了失败，他的难，是注定的！
    真正的学习，真正的创业，没有你想象的那么难，那么多的不可能。

    当然，任何事，也不会像我们，想象的那么易。任何事，真正做好它，都不容易。这世上，没有天上掉下的馅儿饼，有得到，就有付出，有选择，就有承担。我们往 往容易看到别人的成功，而忽视这成功后隐藏的机遇、付出和酸甜苦辣。而且，不是所有的士兵都当得了将军，也不能人人都成得了大英雄，很多时候，人定，但胜 不了天；很多时候，谋事在人，成事却在天。

    难乎？易乎？不难，也不易。
    因为不难，我们在战略上要藐视敌人；因为不易，我们在战术上要重视敌人。
    因为不难，我们就要解放思想；因为不易，我们就要谨慎行事。
    因为不难，我们要相信自己；因为不易，我们要尊重客观规律。
    因为，不难，也不易，我们就有了一份自信，有了一份从容，我们便有了一个良好的心态……

No more scholarship for me?! Really?!

Don't be too freaking out when you saw the title of the post.
This is what daddy say it to me just now.
I'm so sad.
But I've to accept the fact.
It is because I need 2 guarantor for letting me to get the scholaship.
And this 2 guarantor all need to have a nett salary of RM3000.
Well, it is hard to find actually.
Because at 1st daddy thought that my cousin who is teacher will have the salary of RM3000.
But in last, it wasn't have this kind of salary.
So now although have 1 guarantor for me it still need 1 more.
If really can't find 2 guarantor then daddy is going to pay all the fees.
I need to accept this fact if it is really happen.
But I still hope that I can get the scholarship.
If there is going to have miracles coming out.

Driver are SUCKS Nowadays!

Nowadays the driver are SUCKS!
I didn't mean for all the driver but SOME OF THE DRIVER.
Do you know that you are SUCKS?
If you want to drive in the land beside you, PLEASE use signal!
Don't just suddenly drive into the land!
If the others driver can't respond in fast, then there will be accident!
And you will make TRAFFIC JAM along the road!
SUCKS you guys! WTF!
Even those with UNIFORM workers!
You guys are wearing UNIFORM and yet you guys didn't use SIGNAL!
What a SHAME!

心很痛！很难受！

现在的心突然很痛!!!

有很多东西要去想!!!

但并不是我想要的!!!

我也不想要这样的!!!

请不要再给我压力!!!

请你不要一直逼我!!!

请你给我一点空间!!!

请你给我空间呼吸!!!

请你给我空间思考!!!

请你给我空间做事!!!

Tears falling down.

First of all, Happy Mother's Day to all Mom in the world.
You all are the greatest Mom.
This year having a different Mother's Day.
I MISS MUMMY!
I miss the time we've been through.
Mummy, I've many things wanted to tell you.
But where should I start?
I've received scholarship for Nursing.
Continue my study in Penang.
Will follow your plan after my Diploma.
Now when we have holiday, daddy always bring us out.
Don't know will you be happy to listen it or not.
But I think you will agree with what Daddy had done all these while.
He bring us go KL on this year CNY.
He knew that you did promise wanted to bring us go.
You did say want to bring us to many place.
Daddy now is trying to fullfilled all your dreams all these while.
1 bad habits for Daddy is back.
He is smoking again.
Bro is doing well with his Form 1 school life.
Sis is ok.
Lastly, Mummy, Happy Mother's Day!
I MISS U!
I LOVE U!
Tears falling again.